Not Again

I can't believe this is happening again. I really thought that all this cancer suffering was behind me but just when I was starting to feel pretty comfortable and content,....radiation takes a burn for the worse. I have been suffering with what I'd describe as a wicked sunburn the last 4 or 5 days. It's been described to me as more like a chemical burn in it's reality but since I've never HAD a chemical burn it's like a really bad sunburn to me. But, tonight I noticed blistering in some of the bad spots. Great. I have three more weeks of this. I'm pretty devastated and have been thrust into a bit of a depression or it could be intense cancer fatigue. I don't know and I since I don't care, I'm leaning toward depression.

I'm pretty sure everyone around me is sick of this too. I haven't shared my isary with very many people because everyone just wants it to be better. I hate being the carwreck in everyone's life.

Nights are the worst. It just stings and itches and hurts like hell and I can't sleep. Ugh.