Pink Ribbons

I'm meeting with a surgeon in a week to discuss my upcoming lumpectomy. I have breast cancer. I'm ok. The hardest part is talking about it with people. In fact, I don't want to talk to people. When someone says the words, "I have breast cancer", people react. The oncologist/radiologist said, "I'm sorry but you have cancer", I was at peace, slightly sad but at peace. But, I know why he said, "I'm sorry". It changes you in ways you can never anticipate. Sorry and pity are the emotion that others feel. I want positive emotion. I want love, not pity. I want strength not sorry. I want reactions like this..

I have cancer. You are beautiful.

I have cancer. You are strong.

I have cancer. You are peace.

I have cancer. You are love.

I have cancer.
I am NOT cancer, it will be gone. I know.

I've only told 3 people. Two friends I choose to tell, they were strong women who I knew could handle it and give me strength, love, and peace. One friend just happened to call and I dropped the bomb. She was a mess. You see, it's everyone else's reactions that shake me. I'm ok.

I don't know how to incorporate this into my everyday interactions. But, it's ok. I don't have to know how today.

Dance of the Lion & Unicorn

So, in the last few days I devoured the book, The Dance of the Lion and Unicorn--The Secret of Conscious Relationships

It's amazing and so "right on". It's changed how I look at all meaningful relationships.

Something amazing happened. I had a question about the book and how it related to my life. I contacted the author, Mark Waller, with the question and he's entered into a dialogue with me about my question. It's remarkable.

As a result of our dialogue, I'm trying to be aware of the chatter in my head. Just be aware of that voice in my head. This is the same message as Eckart Tolle in the Power of Now. Conscious relationships start with consciousness. Conscious parenting starts with consciousness.